chickened out

So I guess I just chickened out and stopped this. But I really want to get back to it. So here goes. Last night was so scary. My husband called me from Afghanistan and very abruptly said he had to go because something was going down. My heart sank, just a little bit. I know he has said this before and he's still okay. So I wasn't upset, but as I said my heart sank just a little. Literally 2 minutes later a co-worker/friend/"babysitter" of my child texted me that there was a hostage situation in a local store. I immediately called a friend/fellow IVFer/spouse of a police officer and soldier and asked her what was going on. She informed me her hubby was on his way back to town from a training and all officers were called in. My heart sank a little more. Although my husband wasn't here in this situation, all his co-workers and some of them close friends, were and it was scary. I was home sick, our daughter was at daycare and there was nothing I could do. I didn't know the status of my husband overseas and I didn't know the status of the police officers here in town. My husband ended up calling me because he heard through his Col. that a police officer here was shot in the standoff. I didn't believe that to be true because I hadn't heard that from anyone and the news was reporting no injuries. But again my heart sank a little. What if I missed something? What if I wasn't called because they hadn't informed all the family yet? What if? What if? I reassured my hubby that I had not heard anything like that and didn't think it was so. Then immediately called my friend (mentioned above) again and asked her if that was true. Thankfully, no it was not true. Oh, how I hate rumors! The situation ended after about 5 hours with police officers, SWAT team, robots, etc. The gunman was only 19 and he ended his own life, sparing the lives of all others. However, prior to killing himself, he fired 15-20 rounds at police officers. So scary. I am a police wife and a military wife. I expected to be dealing with 2 situations at the same time like I was last night. I was so relieved and so thankful for the safety of all those involved. I went to bed snuggling with the last t-shirt my husband wore before he left on his deployment and praying...thanks to God for keeping our officers and those involved safe and a prayer for the family and friends of the man who chose to end his own life.

I certainly hope things start looking brighter and I have more positive news to post!